春天的雨

currently playing: "你是爱我的" from film "如果·愛"

我還沒有放棄... 你打算放棄了嗎？就這樣放棄了嗎？

只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著　要怎麼停呢? 説好的幸福呢?

爸，請你告訴我...回憶的音樂要怎麼停呢?
爸，請你告訴我...你後悔了嗎？

i guess we are powerless to help determine the happiness of others...but we can determine our own, and aim to provide an environment for our future other & children to find their longlasting happiness....

i guess....我們只能找到自己未來的幸福.

2010, Madonna & 2nd chances

I find constant updating & loading photos on FB a bit toilsome, so from now on, I'll just update here. I dug up an entry I wrote last year about believing in 2nd chances. It's a new year & I still believe.

It still makes such an impact on me, so i thought id start out with this as my first entry in 2010:



Madonna & 2nd chances
Madonna's speech on Michael Jackson made me reflect on my own life, the people I have met, the impact they have made in my life, ...and how we tend to take advantage of things that we feel will always be there. It is so sad that we do that. And it isn't until God takes someone or something away when we turn around and want to say or show what we always wanted to say or show to that person, but it is too late. When God sends his angels down to take that person away, there is no way to change his mind, or to turn back time...all you can do is regret that you never told that person how great and how important they were to you...or how wonderful it was to have that person light up your life. All too often we are left with that desire to correct our shortsight, knowing too well that THAT desire will never be fully satisfied~ once a glass of milk that was once half full has been broken, one can never fill that glass back up...no matter how fantastic that new carton of milk you had purchased is. and Why? Because, that person has left. Because God HAD given us the time to appreciate what we have in our lives, and we tend to get so caught up in things that-- in one way or another, choice after choice made, had chosen to take advantage of it while we had it.

For those that think I am stupid for giving others 2nd chances: perhaps I am. perhaps a part of me still believes ( naive? maybe.): it is a chance and a risk I take. Yes, I have had people take advantage of my ability to forgive, and hurt me again and again. But i will put it this way: God has shown his love to me when i had most needed it. and He had forgiven me when i had needed it. So i will continue to show my love for those who need it, and forgive them as well...and I hope they will do the same for me. I believe we are all humans, and i believe we all make mistakes. I believe in the bad and the demons in people...but I also believe in the good in people. I believe in 2nd chances. On an individual basis, it is not necessarily what they do to be called a "good person" or "good friend"...but it is what that person does with the 2nd chance ( call it hope or love) you give them that i believe determines if they are a good person or a good friend. If they take that 2nd chance for granted, and depending on the situation, a possible 3rd chance (although i dont expect much after that), then they deserve the distance i put between us. If they appreciate that 2nd chance, then yeah, i will continue to believe in them.

I had recently given a friend a 2nd chance. There are those who shake their head and tell me that friend will just end up doing the same thing again...so why bother. Why? because i want to believe in her, the way i want to believe in the good in people, and the only way to find out is to give it a try. Because i dont want to take advantage of the possibly good people God places in my life, and because i dont want to live a life with a trashcan full of broken glasses. What an ugly world we end up living in if we lose faith in the good in people, what an ugly world it is without 2nd chances.

In case her speech has been forgotten already, here is from my scrapbook:

Madonna gave one of the best Goddamn speeches on Michael Jackson ever. (sorry, there is a 25 sec Jay-Z commercial before it. Can't erase it)

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( if the video doesnt work, this wonderful speech can be found:

http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1621390/20090913/jackson_michael.jhtml